Revelation

I decided today that I'm going to change.
You see I've always envisioned myself as a certain kind of mother. Having a home centered on Christ and crafts.
I catch myself time and time again, falling into the trap of my up bringing. Yelling... impatience... criticism...completely opposite of my vision.

Tonight, I feel empowered.

Yesterday I wanted to die. I wanted someone else to take over for me. I wanted to go home to my father in heaven and he told me my work isn't done so I needed to stop throwing fits... in not so many words.

Tonight, I feel so strongly that I need to become that mom I'm meant to be. To raise my daughter's to their full potential... how?

Well I took their picture today... and I saw in a flash, that my babies were growing/grown. Where did the time go? I don't remember growing up that fast. :-(

My time is now. I'm going to serve without expectations. I'm going to compliment my husband, my children and myself daily.

I'll make the effort to do more crafts and fill my home with laughter... to be rid of the distractions the world Has put in our hands like tv, internet, gaming devices, and the like. I'm going to implement service in our home and for our neighbors, and more snuggle time and reading...
I've been seriously considering home schooling Kate as well.

I don't work very often, when I do feature films it takes a lot of time for a short amount of time... I've always had this thought that work is not important enough to me to miss out on my family, even though it's a good break at times.

I have this feeling like Christ is coming sooner then I'd think.... my time in my girls life is limited... so much so that I don't want to take vacations without them. I know why I'm on this earth...I hope the Lord sees fit to allow me to watch my girls become mothers and live long gospel centered lives.